wow its almost a year now... guess wat my life again feel with saddness like always... its been like a test for me... to see how long more i can endure? well i maybe a failure in relationship now but guess wat the girl i once had aint all tat fabulous after all... i wanna concentrate on my career now... its back on track now after she left me emo for 2weeks... after get my career done and good then go for the girl tat i like bahz perhapes then i have time and effort to commit the relationship... even though i am struggling to put tis girl called HuiShan aside for now... she is my primary crush :x old right? LOLx who would know tat after one left i actually managed to contact back my old flame... hahazz but right now i am gonna cast it aside first... of course if huishan did find someone she might love during my journey in my career i will wish her all the best... after all i am mr nice guy for a long time le :x hehex

can say probably now i am sad but yet happy... WAT THE FUCK am i saying? haha elaborate more... i am sad when i am alone at home with nothing but my laptop... happy when i am in office with my collegues and friends outside as they nvr fail to cheer me up and keep me happy... i think tat explaint better LOLX